Day of the Week: Friday
Location: The Indian Tower, West High Street Nazareth Pennsylvania 18064
Time: 9:34 pm
Observer: My friends, Ryan, Randy, Nando, Davinder and I
Habitat: There is a circle of rocks that we have to climb over. In the middle of these rocks is a tower, and a huge rock that has a plaque explaining the history of the tower. The tower has a spiral staircase which we climbed up. It reminds me of a lighthouse. When we get to the top you can see a view of the whole city. To the left of the Indian Tower there is a cemetery.
Weather: The weather is partly cloudy. It is 61 degrees. The precipitation is 20%, The humidity is 60% and the wind is 15 mph
Remarks: I look at the view and I feel content. I feel really happy to be in such a beautiful place with such amazing people. I also feel really hungry and cold because we didn't get food and I forgot a jacket. It is really cool to be in a place that has such history. I am also a little freaked out because Davinder keeps telling me this place is haunted and that its a cursed burial ground. So I was ready to get out of there.
Comments: I have such a deep appreciation for my friends. I feel like we are infinite right now. I love this place and these people and I feel like I will remember this moment for a long time.
Personal Account:
4/17/2017
It is very hard for me to explain this moment because I feel like this is a moment I have been waiting for my whole life. I feel a sense of utter belonging. I feel like I am on top of the world. I have had to make some very difficult choices lately and I feel very unsure about everything. I don't know if I made the right choice and it upsets me because my choice affects other people but here I am looking at this beautiful view with amazing people and I'm not thinking about all the bad things going on. I'm thinking about how I feel so infinite. The stars are shining, I'm looking down at the city below me. I have got my guy with me and our friends. I have spent so much of my life in hospitals and shut away from the world and in this moment it is like none of that has ever happened to me. At this moment I'm not my past. That's not who I am anymore. All I see is the potential for a great future. There is a movie called Perks of Being A Wallflower and there is a scene where the characters are riding in a tunnel and listening to a song called Heroes and they say how they have never felt more infinite and that's how I felt in that moment. I have searched for a moment like that my whole life, I have dreamt of it so I feel like the pieces of the puzzle are coming together.
Date: April 14th
Day of the Week: Friday
Location: Lehigh Lookout, At the Lehigh University campus in Bethlehem Pa
Time: 11:47
Observers: I am with Ryan, Nando and Jess
Habitat: Nando, Jess and I are smoking a cigarette. We are sitting on a wall looking at the view. Jess and I are practicing songs for out audition of Chicago which are coming up soon. Ryan is just sitting looking at the sky. There are other people here and I am pretty sure we are annoying them because we are singing so loudly
Weather: The weather is partly cloudy. It is 61 degrees. The precipitation is 20%, The humidity is 60% and the wind is 15 mph
Remarks: I feel good. I am still with great people and nothing makes me happier than looking at the sky and the constellations and identifying them.
Comments: I came to the decision that I am going to focus on myself. I decided that I need to focus on myself and that I need to date myself for a little. This scenery gives me clarity. Things are starting to make sense to me and I feel like I am understanding myself on a deeper level
Personal Account: 4/ 17/ 2017
I have recently had to go through something traumatic and instead of dealing with it I walked away from it and threw myself into helping other people. I have spent so much of my energy caring for them and not for myself and I am killing myself. The time I spent here looking at the sky has led me to the conclusion that I am not okay and that I need to help myself. This was something I was almost blind to before. The aftermath of this night led me to seek out counseling so that I can do what's best for me and I am totally okay with that. This night has made me remember a night a long time ago where I sat on the roof with my friends and we talked about things that we never talked about with anyone else before. I am proud of myself that I have come to a conclusion that I needed to reach. I know that I am going to be okay now which is a great thing to know because before I was so unsure. I am going to better myself and I am so excited for that moment. I have my friends and family on my side and the most important person myself. I love this place. I love being surrounded by such good vibes and I don't want this night to end. This has truly been such a crucial moment in my adult life and I feel like I am finally on the high way.
